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Be where you are: the Truth about growing up

January 13, 2016 LifeThoughts  5 comments

I used to have big dreams for my life. 

If you were to ask my sixteen-year-old self what my life would look like, she could take you by the hand and tell you exactly what would happen next. She'd tell you: I'm going to graduate from high school.Attend Columbia College in Chicago and major in Journalism.Write and edit for the school newspaper.Graduate. Get a job working as journalist (details were vague in my head, but I imagined myself running around the city with a messenger bag and a notebook). Cover breaking news, heart-wrenching important stories about the suffering and exploit of people around the globe. Travel a lot. Have a cool apartment. And that was about the extent of it. But all I knew was that I was going to be somebody. I was going to do important

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I’m not who you say I am

October 28, 2014 LifeThoughts  One comment

Just like many of other people, all of my life I've been told that I could do anything I wanted to do, become anyone or anything I put my mind to. Unfortunately, it's taken me a long time to tease out what I want to be verses who other people wanted me to be.

In the eighth grade, I started my own small group (bible study) for my group of middle school friends because there wasn't one. And then I started up another one at my high school because I was supposed to be a leader and I was supposed to want to bring Jesus into my school and "shine His light". I was supposed to want to pray every morning with my friends for the salvation of my peers, because surely that's what good, devoted Christian girls do? Good Christian girls didn't sit in a quiet classroom for twenty minutes before

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You are all parts of you

November 15, 2013 LifeThoughts  One comment

None of us really changes over time. We become more fully what we are. Anne Rice

I have often felt that my life has been fragmented. As in, it does not add up to one cohesive whole.

My parents divorced when I was five and I spent the next fifteen years moving between houses: 13 in total (that's not including several of my parents houses that I did not actually live in - but it is including my several moves since graduating high school).

Along the way there have been several different step-parents, more than a handful of step-siblings, and extended step-family. So on top of the normal changes in a child's life and the evolving nature of families, there has been a whole lot of disconnect and constant change.

It wasn't all bad. There were times of

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Culture of discontent and judgement

October 11, 2013 ThoughtsWriting  No comments

If you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mom, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on television telling you how to do your shit, then you deserve it.Frank Zappa

 

Recently, I have been doing a lot of research on the publishing industry and just how difficult it is to break into the market and be successful (more on this coming up in my next post).

As I've said earlier, I've given myself a year to "figure out" -  to live in what it feels like to be a writer, without any obligations or pressure from myself (it's funny how I think this is actually possible). In concert with last week's post about other career choices, and thinking about the future, I have to stop and ask myself: is how my life is right now

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